LIFE AS A COLLEGE STUDENT ! ....or maybe I should make it as life as an A-LEVEL student . I didn't know that I will be this stress and this helpless after I took A-level . At first I thought college will be fun . 'Yay ! I am finally an adult ?" thinking of that after I step in college (not even uni LOL) I was really happy that time as I think that I can finally wear something different other than the blue and white school uniform ... but now ,I keep thinking those days when I have no worries about what to wear the next day ! I can swear this will be your worst and biggest question that haunt you every day after you stop wearing your school uniform as there is always a somebody that tell you : ' EH XANNE , I THOUGHT YOU WORE THIS TEE LAST WEEK !' wtf I thought there is something call washing machine in the world ?!
Hmmmm okay my main point writing this post is actually not to say anything about my outfit . I just want a pathway to release the stress I am facing it now . I am having my AS final exam now ! Don't ask me why I still have time to blog . Don't ask ! cause I have no idea why I am blogging ! I just have a thought that I will never let my kid study A-level in the future ! NEVEEERRR ~
At first , after finish my spm , I start finding college . I have no idea why am I so desperate to get into college that time ... or maybe I should say that I really looking forward about life in college . I thought It will be totally different from government schooling life . But the main thing is I choose A-level ! To be really honest , I overestimate my self , I thought I am clever enough , smart enough to handle all this . I challenge myself as they always say A-level is tough . I know its tough that's why I choose A-level , and I regret . I can't stand the stress sometimes . I always thought that I am hardworking enough to get rid all the obstacles that I am going to face in my life ....but now I notice I can't ! All my friends around me they are 100x clever 100x hardworking ! WHO AM I ?
Yesterday , I have my econs paper and it haunt ! I wrote something totally irrelevant ! I am going to ruin my life ...or maybe I am ruining it already ? I have actually no idea what am I typing now and I will never read this post again . I trying to write all my stress in it and make it a way to release my stress . I am really sorry if someone read this and it become something that make you even stress . If .. you are a mum and you reading this , always remember that if your child choose to study A-level just because he or she not sure about his or her life yet , please talk to your kid ... it will be a tough way
Until now I cannot understand why in FORM 5 I can handle so mant subject including biology sejarah ...all these memorizing subject but now I cant event handle my 4 A-level subject ! WHY WHY WHY !!!
I keep telling myself tomorrow will be another day , another day with better rainbow ~ I really hope that I can score and study overseas (or maybe not ..... the exchange rate is KILLING ME ) !
Time to end this and continue with my studying .
Goodluck everyone if you are studying A-level somewhere and taking your final somewhere ~
